I am taking a retreat for about mouth or more. In the beginning of the year I decided to devote all my art time to Shane St. I had very bad experience with some conventional art at year’s end of last year with some commissions work. After that I decided to double down on the Back Alley Boys. Well it’s been about 6 months since I dedicated my art and my time to Shane St.
It’s time to do some reflection of ware I want to take it next or if there is a next. I love drawing and creating my Back Alley Boys. Artistically for me it’s a wonderland of endless pleasure and enjoyment. I am always amazed how the subconscious works on an artistic level. Characters truly create themselves and they have so much to say.
I know some love the porn aspect of my pieces and I get many comments how it gives them a boner, but I think the best compliment I get is when somebody tells me, “That’s Cool.” Maybe because that is the universal thumbs up that my art has connected. Although my art is mainly gay and is sexual it is not the whole story of these characters. It’s about the self and being a boy. Gay or Bi or what have you, but a boy is a boy. Once you lose the boy to a man you lose what it is to be male.
A boy is a very very special thing in the universe and that is not just because he has a boner, but that is part of it but not the whole part. Every one of us has been alone and in that loneliness our hand slides down to our desires. There we have enjoyed the pleasure of what it is to be male. The self of honesty.
I’m not one of the flowerily love or the selfie of likes. I live in the alley ways of second guesses and the doorways of unwashed feet. Were its not love that feeds my thirst but the direct current of another.
I have always lived my life in way of not to make too many waves. Kept to myself and did my job, but the boy on the other hand. Well he wanted to see it burn, and that is the boy that is in all of us. “Fuck it lets burn it.” 99% of the time that gets us in trouble and makes us pathological liars. But that 1% is the universe that we jam up from our balls on daily basis. It’s the boy that thinks he can get away with it that made steel fly out to the stars. That 1% boy is what brings piece or war to the world. It’s that 1% boy that makes you burn so hot that you will gladly, “pay Tuesday for a hamburger today”. (Poppy Sailor man, look it up.)
So when I started Shane St. I decided that the boy would be in control and say fuck it lets do it. Let’s see were this goes. I go into my studio every day and I place the pencil in the boys hand and ride that 1% like it was 99%. I told the boy to push it and leave nothing. He turned to me and said, “Nothing?” I said, “Nothing.”
So it is time for the boy to rest and go back to the source were all boys come from and reflect and study, and walk upon the beach and feel the cool water upon his feet.
Will he return? I really don’t know.